I am 22 years old and SERIOUSLY over weight! I used to love life! I used to dance every day and even taught dance.. but through out my life there has always been one main issue. WEIGHT!
I know almost every girl gets paranoid about there weight, but my mad obsession has seen obsession turned into obesity!
Of course, obesity does come with it's fair share of health problems. However, these are the least of my worries.
I have a condition called bi-polar disorder. One minute I can be full of beans, bubbly, and feel like I can take on the world. However I also get incredible lows... feeling like I'm useless, cease to understand the reason of my existence. In these times I can spend hours upon hours doing nothing, finding it a major struggle to even get out of bed.
I am thankful that my condition isn't as severe as others, but at the same time it is something I struggle to deal with every day, from mental break downs to outrageous thoughts. 'What's that got to do with losing weight?' I hear you cry.... Well I truly believe that I need to feel better about myself to feel better within my self.
I have gotten myself into a vicious cycle... I am a comfort eater. I get down.. I eat. I feel guilty about this so what do I do.. eat... I get fed up of my weight so what do I do, stop eating to lose weight? No.. eat even more. And these cycle goes on and on and to be honest I am stuck in a rut.
Today, is the start of the rest of my life. I am about to attend a slimming world club, one that I have been to before, and been successful. I lost control of my relationship with food and I feel that now is the time to condition myself to what my relationship with food should be.
On this blog, I shall keep record of how much weight I have lost, my highs, my lows and my feelings. I also want as much input as possible from others. So if there is anything I can give to you, or you can give to me, please feel free.
Thanks.. Cherished Rose x
